fuuuuuuuuuuuuu

yes maybe i just dont know how to be beautiful. i always deny that i  just want to be an ordinary girl, butt the fact is i'm nor ordinary at all, and i always say i just wanna be usual but actually i wanna be beautiful like other girls. but i still dont know how to be like them, i mean not being like them, but how to put some make ups and fashion and all the girl's things. 

i wanna change my style but i always fail!!! i always have the same look!!! never change!!! never be beautiful even i put make up on my face, even i use lip balm and whatever i just still fail!!!!!!!!!!!

why so many beautiful girls out there, they make me disappear like a wind. they make me invisible. i know sometimes i wanna be invisible, but not in this case and not always.